Releasing anger at 8 in the morning.

You know how i said i would probably use this thing to vent? Well this morning i am. Let me share with you my day yesterday...and almost all of it could have been avoided if people would mind their own business.

First, someone called my house and shared with my mom (and whoever you are that did call, you should probably be happy i dont know who you are) that i was at a party where there was drinking and some other stuff. No, i was NOT drinking...thats not where i am in trouble. I am in trouble because i lied about a situation AFTER i left so that i wouldnt get someone else in trouble. Yes i know, i shouldnt have lied. However, why would someone care that i lied and feel the need to call my mom and tell her. Better yet, how did they even know i lied, if they weren't there?? Well i'm glad to say, this part is fine now...but this part led to another conversation...

Second, someone ELSE called my mom and decided to share some information with her about why she should watch out for me...i'm not going to go into a lot of detail. All i know is that people once agian need to mind there own business, i have done a pretty good job at keeping my reputation good, or i have tried to at least. Others may not have done that great of a job, but hey guess what?! people screw up. its life. So once agian, to whoever called this time, mind your own business. i can handle myself, and im glad you think that i cant. Because you obviously know nothing about me.

So for future reference, i'm almost 20. If you have something to say why don't you call me and not my mom. Why dont you call me and tell me i shouldn't lie, and that i should handle it by telling the truth. Or call me and tell me to watch out (actually dont do that, just keep your opinion to yourself, because you obviously heard or saw whatever incident you are talking about so does that make you any better? no.) I am beyond aggravated this morning...i'm upset...i'm hurt. So whoever you are that obviously want to make me feel this way...i hope you are happy.

Now on a lighter note (you will probably get a kick out of this) Monday morning i came to work at 8 like normal. Now there is something you should know, i am NOT a morning person, i dont wake up early and when i have to, i roll outta bed, get dressed brush my teeth and run out the door. So i am sitting at my desk, like i normally am and this man came up with a camera and a little notebook. I automatically put two and two together and realized he was from the monitor. He had been walking around taking pictures of all the classes and ect. He thought it would be funny if he told karen or whoever was standing out here that i was on Facebook. No big deal, we are allowed, i do it all the time. Well then he begins asking my name and if i go to school here and whatever. Then he takes a picture of me. (keep in mind, i look like poo at this point in the morning). Well i didnt think anything else of it. And for some reason while i was sitting on my front porch with travis, i thought, i wonder if my pictures in the monitor, i really hope not. And of course travis said something like "what if it was on the front page...that would be so funny". i immediatly disagreed and moved on with a different conversation. Then we went inside, and i asked if anyone had bought a monitor. No one had. Then since i have an addiciton to fb i had to check it. And when i did i had a lovely facebook message from karen that said. "Emily, go get a monitor, your on the front page!" and i was like no way...by this point travis was already laughing and he probably hasnt stopped yet. So i get in the truck, drive down to the paper box and sure enough there is my face plastered across the front of the paper. So after we laughed really hard...i went home (can i add that my mom was still mad about this phone call, so she didnt think it was as funny).

And THAT was my day yesterday. (add about 8 hours of hw to that story tho).

Realizations

I came to a couple of realizations (not sure if thats even a word but i'm going to use it anyway) last night. And if i would have come to these conclusions months ago, i would have saved myself a lot of time. i think.

People never change, yet they change. Yes, confusing statement, but let me explain. People change over long periods of time, and alot of time they aren't the same person that you met. So you want them to change, but they are never going to change back to the person you remember them being. Does that make sense? I wasted to much time wishing someone would change. And i'm sure i missed out on alot because i was waiting, actually i know i did, which leads me to my second conclusion...

...Listen to your friends. I say this for a number of reasons, one being they see things differently than you do, from an outside perspective. And 99.9% of the time they are correct with what they 'think' will happen. If i would have listened to my friends, particulary two of them, on a variety of different topics i would probably be in a very different place right now. which leads me to my third and final realization...

...Every decision i have made over the past few months has gotten me to where i am now. i'm really happy where i am now, would i have gotten here sooner if i would have listened to my friends advice and realized that people will never change? idk, maybe. Would i not be at this place in my life at all if i would have listened? i have no clue, all i know is that i have two very good friends who totally predicted where i am now, one of them months ago. i just find it ironic. The way things work out, and the way things dont. Looking back i see what i didnt see then. I know now why God tells us no sometimes...he sees the whole picture...and we dont.

I also came to the conclusion that i think about things to much.

Here We Go(:

Well, I now have a blog. I'm not quite sure yet what i am going to use it for, so you will have to stick around to find out. Hoover made me make it, so you should go look at her photography blog thingy, cuz she pretty much rocks and is gonna be like the next huge photographer...u just wait and see.

Thanks to Jenny, i try not to post 'personal stuff' on the internet anymore. She has broken me of this habit, mainly just by looking at me like i was dumb...so i'm not really sure what to 'blog' about. What are you supposed to blog about? life? haa, that would take years. Soooo, i'm just gonna go w/ the flow and see what happens with this thing. maybe its a good way to vent...hmm that could work...we will see.

Hoover, I hope your happy...because i have NO idea what i am doing here!! and i only made this thing because i love you(: