My friends(:

Post number two for the day...but i had a good idea, so i'm going to go w/ it. I made a post (and later deleted it) about friends. Well, on that particular day i was in one of my moods, and i was just feeling kind of alone i guess, i dont know how else to explain it. But i do in fact have alot of close friends...So i'm gonna tell you a little bit about them (: [[i'm not doing them in any particular order, i'm literally going through my fb pictures and picking whoever comes next!]]

This is Meaghan (: Me and meaghan met when i was in 8th grade, she was in 10th, at church. I would say we majorly hit it off, and we were pretty much inseperable for the following two years. People called us the 'twins' i dont know if its because we thought it was cool to match all of our clothes or because we were similar in size (at that point in time, we were just about the same exact size). We have a trillion memories together, way to many inside jokes, and even more pictures (we have probably taken thousands, i'm not even kidding!) I love her to death, and even though st. augustine really isnt THAT far away, it makes me sad that i dont see her much anymore. But when i do see her, we pretty much pick up right were we left off. She is one of the very very few people that i can tell absolutely anything to, shes the most sweet non judging person i know, and i love love love her! Shes that one girl, that will always be your best friend, no matter how long you go w/o talking or seeing each other. I'm trying to pick just one funny story with her but i'm having trouble choosing...there is just to many to pick from. Maybe i will save the funny stories for a later post (: love ya meag!

And then their's Jenny. I actually had a cute picture (one of us actually smiling) picked out, but that just doesn't fit us. The picture i picked is pretty typical. I've known of Jenny for a long time, haha. We cheered in high school, but we weren't really friends i would say. We became friends when she started dating Steve (which is now her husband), because at the time i was dating Steve's younger brother. We have really good talks, about random stuff most the time, while sitting on the swings and drinking icees at the park (: We havn't done that in a while in fact..we should get on that. But most of the time you will find us taking stupid pictures like above, or just acting stupid. We like to have fun and laugh, and we do that quite well. We also annoy the crap out of each other, and we know it and tell each other frequently, haa. I would say Jenny is my blunt honest friend, she isn't scared to tell me how it is, or when i'm out of line, or when i'm just being straight up dumb about a situation. And that's what i love about her, we all need that someone who isn't scared to tell us how it is, and she definetly isnt, and i definetly need someone like that in my life. I love that if i need advice on something, she will tell me her honest opinion, and not just say what she thinks i want to hear. Its so weird how things work out, and i think about that with her in particular. God put her in steves life, not long before he took Drew out of mine. I'm super glad he did, because he seemed to put her in my life right at the right time, she has helped me get through some pretty rough times (or what i thought was rough at the time) and i dont know if she knows, but i dont know what i would have done without her during those times (: We've had a few bumps along the way...but who hasnt at times, we get over ourselves and its all good agian! love you jenny(:

Next is Hoover. I picked a good picture, sadly we only have a few, because most of our pictures look like the one above. I guess we became friends a few years ago through the church, she started hanging out with us and over time we became good friends. If you would have told me when i first met her we would be as close as we were i probably wouldn't have believed you. I was a typical girl, and when started hanging out with us, i was like "who the heck is this girl" haa. But i love her now, so its all good. She is probably one of the funniest people i know. The most random stuff comes out of her mouth! And it is very funny random stuff most of the time too. She is very blunt, thats what i love about her. If she wants to know something, no matter what the topic is, she will ask. She won't beat around the bush, she will just straight up say it. Most the time it catches me off guard, and all i can do is laugh for a minute before i can actually answer her nosey question. She is extremely laid back, shes busy w/ school and stuff most the time, but in general she pretty much goes with the flow. We call her our "hippie friend", but really shes not, i think its just cause we are jealous we could never pull off the cute clothes she wears...because we would just look dumb. haha. She too will pretty much give me her straight up opinion on a situation, and i really do love that! I want friends who will tell me the truth even when i dont really want to hear it! I love her to death, and i am super glad i quit being a stupid girl and actually got to know her, she is a wonderful person (: love ya hoooverrrrrr!

And last but DEF not least, is dani! I met dani through church...geez i am seeing a trend here. haha. I'm not quite sure what grade maybe the summer before my junior year is when we actually got close...just guessing. We started out as bus buddies for youth trips and we soon became best friends! We to have waaaay to many pictures, speaking of, we are lacking lately my dear! I love her, she has never ever ever altered her values for anyone and she has always stood strong on her beliefs, and she loves jesus with all her heart. I'm so blessed to have her in my life, even though she doesnt always make the smartest comments in the world (she truly is a blonde at heart), she def is not scared to say "emily, you should be careful" or "emily i dont think thats the right thing to do" or "emily what are you doing there" or w/e the case is...she keeps me straight. haha. Shes one of the others i can tell anything to, and one of the few people i will say the following about...you break her heart, and i will break you face (: She is the sweetest girl, and would do anything for anyone. I am truly blessed to have her in my life and to be able to say that shes my bestie ((:

Okay, i said i was done w/ the last one but i lied. This really is my last one. Thats my momma(:  And even though at times, like most parents, she can drive me absolutely insane, and i'm sure the feeling is mutual there are days i dont know what i would do without her. When exciting things happen or i'm having a bad day because people are pissing me off (which lately happens quite frequently, they are getting good at it) shes always the first person i call. Most of the time she just laughs at my stupidity but other times she actually does have some pretty good advice...who woulda thought?! haa. She is probably one of the only people whos opinion actually matters to me, because i know she wants whats best for me. And she as much as i hate to admit it, mommy knows best...all the time. haha. She is my altime best friend. Because i know that no matter what i do, or what happens she will always be there and she will always love me. Not only because she has to because shes my mom, but because she wants to. I'm so thankful to have such a good mommy(:

It's Fall!!

It was SO refreshing to walk out of my (stressfull, annoying and way to long) math class this morning and feel this wonderful fall weather...i was to stressed out and worried about class this morning when i left my house to notice how wonderful it felt outside! and it's supposed to get colder!! YAY(:(: that seriously excites me like you have no idea.

And hopefully there will be more fall weather in Atl this weekend, not sure what the weather is gonna be like there, but hopefully it will be a little cooler than it will be here. I'm excited about going, cuz i get to see the cousins and such...but at the same time i dont want to leave, im so weird. As much as i say i love to get out of keystone...the truth is, i dont like to go far. It will be a nice get a way, and i am excited about it, but i'm already excited to be home. That always happens to me, i hate traveling, i'm such a home-body (is that the right way to use that word??). I say i want to move away to a college when i transfer...but i need to face the facts. I actually like keystone lately. Wow, what is wrong with me. This little 'liking keystone' phase just hit me like this week. Normally, i'm the one saying i hated it. But here is what i was thinking, one its small, and for the most part pretty safe, especially compared to some of the cities around us. Two, when i think about teaching at a high school, i dont want to teach at a scary one. I've been volunteering w/ mrs. walls at the high school a few days a week for my online class and yea keystone schools have their problems, but they are actually pretty good school with pretty good kids (minus the few who just refuse to behave). So when i think about having to work at a school, in 2 1/2 very short years ( that is so weird to think i could be teaching peoples kids in two years!! ) i think i would rather be at school with good kids, i mean i will only be like 4 years older than the kids i'm teaching! weird, weird, weird. So that is my thought for the day...i like keystone, so much that i dont even like to leave for the weekend. However, my opinion will probably change when i get back from orlando next weekend (where i want to go to school, cuz i love it down there too), because as you probably already know, i am the most indecisive person in the world. which is why i will never get a tattoo.

Well, i think i have rambled enough. I'm way to bored at work...they shouldnt let me blog. haaa.
Have a wonderful day(:

problem solved, well partly anyway.

About a month ago, my mom recieved two phone calls. I believe I blogged about that previously. Well, the phone call that got under my skin the most was the one about me and travis. Without going into a ton of detail, it was basically said that he was only dating me for one reason. You can probably guess what they said that reason was.

Well, my  mom never told me who it was, but by a process of elimination and some events that recently took place, i now pretty much know who it is.

I know this, because another comment was said, and this one hurt my feelings more than it made me mad. So let me clarify some things about myself for you:

Popular to contrary belief, I do not lower my standards and I do NOT settle for anything less than the best. I would NEVER EVER date someone just because there wasnt anyone else around for me to date. Thats wrong on so many levels, and just not me at all. It hurts my feelings that someone would tell my mom that travis and i are only dating because there isnt anyone else around to date. One thats kind of an insult to both of us depending on which way you look at it, and two what does anyone else know? The sad thing is, that it is an adult making these comments. An adult that i thought knew me pretty well, and would know me well enough to trust me to make smart choices, I have never given anyone a reason not to trust me. And here's a great idea, pay attention to your OWN children and quit worrying about everyone else's...when there is NOTHING to worry about to begin with.

I am me. I know how I feel. I make my own decisions. You are not me, you dont not know how i feel, and you definetly dont make my decisions.

So, it all boils down to one thing...mind your own business please(:

Have you ever?

Have you ever wanted to dry a tear that you knew you had made fall?
Have you ever said something that you never meant at all?
Have you ever wanted to reach out to someone who was in pain?
Have you ever wanted to give sunshine to someone who lives with constant rain?
Have you ever wanted a chance to go back and change the past?
Have you ever stopped to realize that time slips by too fast?
Have you ever loved somebody and never told them so?
Have you ever held back a question that you really wanted to know?
Have you ever felt you might explode from holding stuff inside?
That’s when you have to make a choice between happiness or pride…

bogus.

okay, here is a more funny post for you. Last night in my science class, we were discussing our signs. (like aquarius, cancer, ect.) Well come to find out, some stupid astrologer guy never updated them. Like something about how the earth rotates over a period of time, our signs actually change. Well, SOMEONE never changed them to where they are now, so what you think is your sign...well it isnt. So all this time i grew up thinking i was an aquarius, and i might have been when i was like two, but now i am a capricorn. Its slightly frustrating. haaaa. So, if you would like to know what you CORRECT sign is, let me know, i have the diagram in my binder. And i hope you are as dissappointed as i was. Funny thing though...i dont follow my horoscope. Its just the fact that is was there, and i thought i was something, and now i'm not. Stupid astrologers...they should actually do their job, and keep our signs up to date! geeeeeeez.

And just in case you were wondering also...this is what my teacher does in class.

Give it up.

I feel like so much has happened between the time school started and now, and it only been like three weeks. Some things good, some things bad. It all kind of brings me back to my realizations post i made a few weeks ago. I feel like at this point, i am standing in the middle of a bunch of chaos without a clue of whats going on around me, and i am hoping in a few weeks i will be standing on the outside and everything will make perfect sense...thats normally the way things happen. And i'm sure once that point comes along, i will make yet another realizations post...i like those kind. Makes me feel like i'm actually going places...haha, yes i'm a dork i know. So until the point comes when i know what is going on in my life agian, i'm going to do a few things...

I'm not going to let people get to me.
I'm going to not care what people think of me.
I'm going to try to laugh alot...even when i'm having a bad day...laughing always helps.
I'm going to relax, and not be so uptight all the time.
I'm going to have fun, and not worry.
I'm going to stand strong in what i believe in.
I'm going to pray...and seek God's direction in my life.

Wow, while typing out that last one (i was just making those up as i went, hadn't really thought of them before now) i came to a realization. That maybe i should have already been doing that to begin with. In all areas of my life, and not just parts. Like what school to transfer to next fall (im just applying to everything at this point because i have absolutely NO clue where i want to go). I read a book about a month ago, and in the very first chapter of the book it was talking about how we always want to hold the pen for our life, we want to right our own stories, and that we forget that God already has our story written, we just have to give him the pen. I just got a reminder...i need to give up my pen.