Give it up.

I feel like so much has happened between the time school started and now, and it only been like three weeks. Some things good, some things bad. It all kind of brings me back to my realizations post i made a few weeks ago. I feel like at this point, i am standing in the middle of a bunch of chaos without a clue of whats going on around me, and i am hoping in a few weeks i will be standing on the outside and everything will make perfect sense...thats normally the way things happen. And i'm sure once that point comes along, i will make yet another realizations post...i like those kind. Makes me feel like i'm actually going places...haha, yes i'm a dork i know. So until the point comes when i know what is going on in my life agian, i'm going to do a few things...

I'm not going to let people get to me.
I'm going to not care what people think of me.
I'm going to try to laugh alot...even when i'm having a bad day...laughing always helps.
I'm going to relax, and not be so uptight all the time.
I'm going to have fun, and not worry.
I'm going to stand strong in what i believe in.
I'm going to pray...and seek God's direction in my life.

Wow, while typing out that last one (i was just making those up as i went, hadn't really thought of them before now) i came to a realization. That maybe i should have already been doing that to begin with. In all areas of my life, and not just parts. Like what school to transfer to next fall (im just applying to everything at this point because i have absolutely NO clue where i want to go). I read a book about a month ago, and in the very first chapter of the book it was talking about how we always want to hold the pen for our life, we want to right our own stories, and that we forget that God already has our story written, we just have to give him the pen. I just got a reminder...i need to give up my pen.